Surgeon Appointment, NHS update Started by: Anonymous

The thing is, I have saved to pay for it, in fact I have about £6k in the bank that I can use if I change my mind about it. I’ve always been small, it’s really affecting my life, I was ok’d for this surgery 2 years ago by the NHS, seeing the same surgeon as I’m seeing now, but had to move home because of my husband’s job, so my GP appealed the case and I got a yes, it’s been a long process… I’m not doing it to get a free boob job, although many girls have pointed out to me that it’s not free, I pay taxes, and I fit the NHS criteria for it, which isn’t something I can control – it’s down to BMI, body scans, height and weight, proportions, I’ve had to sit in front of GP’s, surgeons and nurses, telling them how it’s making me feel.

I was going to go with MYA, I actually had the op booked last year, but my husband lost his job in December because the company he worked for went into administration. So I had to cancel. He’s working again now of course, but it was so hard having the op booked and having to cancel it.

I’m doing it because I can’t buy underwear – and when I say underwear I mean literally that I don’t fit into bras, the smallest bra in the UK is a AAA cup and I don’t even fill that (a lot of girls who have paid £x for a boob job have a cup size already, if I was an A cup I wouldn’t be doing this – not that they aren’t entitled to have it done, but are you suggesting that it’s bad that I’m getting it done on the NHS? It’s a little unclear where you’re coming from based on the comments you’ve left, generally speaking when someone says they’re not being rude as an after thought, they’re actually being rude), clothes – my choices are limitted to high neck jumpers, my confidence is really low, I look at the floor when I walk, I wring my hands all the time, I speak in a low voice, and being intimate with the man I married is so difficult for me that I cry. The NHS only help women who they feel need it, I’ve had to justify this to so many people. I have no cup size, in order to look like I have curves I have to pad out 2 bras and wear a sports bra to keep all the padding from moving around. It hurts – I have constant bruises because I refuse to go outside with the chest of a 7 year old. I’ve lived like this for 10 years. It’s really hard.

I’m just saying this because I don’t want you to get the wrong idea (I’m not sure on the tone you were using when you wrote your comment, so I can’t judge if it was rude or not, I’m just giving you the info to be clear). There is a reason the NHS are funding my surgery, it’s because I’m really flat as a result of breastfeeding, lack of development during my teen years and it’s affecting me on a daily basis. I’d happily part with £5000 for this, but the surgeon I have is a really good one, I feel good about his expertise and manner, and I know what I’m getting in terms of care, aftercare etc. That’s what I said, I feel ok about it, and trust his judgement. I would want him to do my surgery even if I was handing over £5k in cash (and he does work privately as well). It’s just difficult getting my head around a couple of things he said, but it can’t be all love and rainbows – every surgery has risks and negative sides, as well as the positives.

Last time I was in hospital I had a really bad experience because I had to be induced in my pregnancy with my son (7 years ago), I had pre-eclampsia, but the staff were dreadful and I didn’t get a good level of care. Different hospital, but I’m still nervous about being in hospital. I have a lot of bad experiences in hospitals. When I was 13 I was visiting my gran in the high dependency ward and everyone thought she was dying, I saw her go into some kind of fit – that was not a good day… Of course I’m nervous about it, maybe other girls are as nervous, but for me it’s not even easy to go as an out-patient, I don’t eat before I go and as soon as an appointment is over I run out and go to the nearest coffee shop. Hospitals just remind me of death. (Dark! Lol)

I think I’ve wanted it for so long that it’s hard for me to accept that it’s actually happening! LOL

I do have other posts on this matter if you want to read them, one of my main concerns about going with the NHS was people thinking I was an opportunist. I was raised being told that “nothing in life is free, work for everything you have” and I do, so I’ve had a real battle with myself over the last 5 months in trying to be ok with the NHS wanting to do this for me, I had one surgeon say to me that he was concerned with the level of care offered by private companies vs the NHS… It’s not easy for me to accept this situation. If I gave less of a hoot about it I’d just get on with my life as a flat chested person, but I do care because I feel terrible. And now I’m questioning it again.

Thank you Kelbel! 🙂 That is so nice of you!
I’ve asked my husband if he’s ok bringing food with us, I will probably make something yummy the night before and get him to go heat it up in the canteen microwave! (Hospital food is not very nice! lol)
I am hoping that I get to go home, the surgeon said it depends on the time slot I’m in, so an overnight stay might be necessary. I won’t sleep, but if I have to I’m sure I’ll cope. Reading material and my MP3 player will keep me busy! I might get a colouring book (you know, a grown up one with complex pictures in it) He did say that people of Celtic decent (I’m Scottish) have a higher risk of keloid scarring, but I’m not worried about that, I scar good.
Are you booked for your surgery soon?

Oh wow, that’s pretty soon! Are you excited? Yeah, it’s good to get things out the way, you’ll feel good once you do it. I have so much I want to do, once I’ve got my BA I’m going to study styling, I’ve not felt able to yet because of all the problems I have with clothes. I cannot wait to wear pretty things!
I turn 27 in September!
I will, you too! I hope it all goes well and you get the results you hoped for!
xxx