That’s understandable rose…it’s such a big decision that changes your body and does of course have risks too which need to be though about properly and understood beforehand. I had the same thoughts in the run up to my BA op but it’s something I’ve thought about for years and felt I wanted to go for it even with there being risks because I knew I wouldn’t be happy without having it done and weighed up the benefits of having it done and felt happier knowing there’s certain things I’ll be able to do which I couldn’t before and also depressed me out so that’s what kept me going. Even after the op I still had moments where I questioned it but ultimately I’m very happy and grateful. Think about your reasons for wanting to do it in the first place and take into consideration the risks too and weigh up if what you could have is what you need considering the risks but also the good things that you feel could come out of it for yourself.