unhappy with results… Started by: Cloey

I had a breast enlargement just over a year ago. I was a 30A, dress size 6/8. I had 520cc high profile implants. I am now a 30F/FF. Being a newbie to any sort of surgery I went in excited to get bigger boobs, and said i want to go as big as i can with it still looking natural to my body shape. (thinking they’d turn round saying i could only go up to a C/D). I said my dream boobs would be a double D no bigger than an E. All the girls at MYA said numerous times go for the biggest choice the surgeons give you as you’ll regret it, and also my surgeon was very inclined to give me the bigger option also.
I have come out after my first week and got all the strapping off and already it was a very starnge feeling like i needed support, but the nurse said they were fine and normal so i thought it must just be what it should feel like… my boobs stayed aesthetically good apart from looking very fake and hard which was expected for first couple of months, and i was so happy with them thinking once dropped they will look natural and will be great.. but once fluffed i noticed i struggled not wearing a bra and not being able to show them off without support (so no backless clothes which is the one thing i looked forward to). A month or two on was when i noticed, my nipples had stretched but i could deal with that as theres got to be some stretching right. But then over time my nipples have been stretched out oblong shaped where the implant is so heavy in my skin. it is so embarrassing. They will sort of go back to circles if i hold my boobs up which is making me worry if i don’t do something now they will permanently stretch that way.
For something i have paid a lot of money for, to improve my confidence has put me in a worser situation than i felt before. I am very depressed i wont even show my friends my boobs anymore because they look so big and fake and now my nipples look. I’d do anything to get my old boobs back and redo it with a smaller cc. I trusted the company and the surgeon to give me a reasonable size to my body, but now i am stuck with this, wanting to cover them up at all costs, unable to have relationships, and pennyless as I cant afford to be casually getting another one.
I have to wear a bra 247 as i get breast pain and severe uncomfortableness. Im embarrassed. What can I do???
I doubt anyone will help just tell me I need more surgery that will be more complex with now more scars and more expensive. It was a one off payment for me to get the first one. But my nipples and size is just too much of a problem for me to live with and what if i leave it longer and my nipples permanently stretch? I cant afford this i didn’t plan for this in under a year.

I never expected for it to be perfect as everything has downsides but I am in a worse off position post op. after all that money spent I am so depressed.