Hopefully this year…

Hey ladies,
I am just updating people with some details. I’ve not been on the forum for a while and it’s because a lot went wrong for me in December. I had booked my surgery and paid a deposit to have surgery with MYA as a late space, then I had to cancel because my husband got made redundant because the company he worked for went bust and had to go into administration. So I had to cancel it all and I spent ages being really upset, but hoping to get my surgery done this year. I’m just having to wait. I’ve wanted this for 10 years, it’s not something I’ve rushed in to, but I’m ready to have it done now. My husband felt so guilty about it, but we’d saved the money and without an income we couldn’t just spend it all on this…

I was ok’d on the NHS (after an appeal) because I fit all criteria to merit them doing it for me (I was previously rejected due to the area’s funding for the previous year, but my GP appealed my case and they’ve said yes). I’ve always been small, breastfed my kids, development issues etc and it’s really affecting my life, to the point where putting clothes on is difficult because I have to layer on padding and stuff in my bras, then wear a sports bra to hold it all in place – it’s really sore and causes cysts a lot but I can’t go out with a flat chest, it’s hard enough. I can’t wear nice clothes, it’s all high necks and lots of layers to hide the bulk of my bras which is a nightmare in summer. I won’t even start on my confidence levels, or how I feel about having no padding on… It’s hard for me.

So, I’m going with the NHS, the surgeon I met seemed ok, really concerned and wanted to give me as much room as possible to ask questions, but as with all NHS staff I felt like I was just a number, and based on things girls have said about private surgeons I get the impression they were more friendly and willing to laugh as well as give their professional opinions. But I suppose it’s not about that, it’s a surgery, and the NHS don’t take this kind of operation lightly, it’s a big deal for them – and me… So, I’m now waiting to hear from them about a further appointment with the surgeon and I’ve no idea how long it will take. My GP said a few months before I see the surgeon, so who knows what the waiting list will be like.

I really wanted to have had my surgery by now. I have a gig in April and it’s a big deal to me, I wanted to look nice in a dress to go, and our wedding anniversary is in July, I wanted to get something nice for that… It’s so difficult over Christmas and Valentine’s day too – all the pretty lingerie is featured in Magazines and on tv, and I never get to wear anything like that.

I think I’m most worried about them looking fake, or someone finding out I got them on the NHS (one of the other mums at school works at the hospital I’d be getting the surgery at), because nobody was nice about that girl in the papers who got hers done on the NHS.. though she did it for attention more than anything I think… I’m getting mine for legitimate reasons…

I really hope it happens soon. I’m so fed up of looking like a little girl with a flat chest.

Hey hun!
Im sooo sorry too hear that! But im glad your able too have them done at some point this year! Dont worry what anyone else thinks! Its your body and only you know how un confident it makes you feel! I hope you get to meet your surgeon soon and the whole process can start 🙂 its deffo worth a little wait! Its the best thing ive ever done!
And dont worry about it because once they are done youll have plenty of time too show them off ! 🙂 xx

Thanks Kirsty! I’m trying not to worry, I think the issue with the NHS is that you’re not really kept informed – you have to chase them for appointments and details, you’re not really in the loop. It’s all very vague so I don’t really know what will happen. And I am one of those control freaks who needs to know everything about something before it happens. But at least I’m moving forward. I just hope I get a choice of when the surgery is and what implants I’ll get. The surgeon said you get Allergan but I don’t know if they offer Natrelle, which is what I want… I need to ask. I was really nervous at my last appointment so I didn’t ask much.

I am just hoping I can get it by May, I doubt it, but I’m not sure I can take another full year of all this padding, it’s so uncomfortable!

Yes the nhs can be a bit of a nightmare with waiting times an you having to chase them!
But about the implants you deffinatly should be aloud a say in size! And im sure they will use naturelle! Tbh hun they will only suggest what they think will be good for you! Just ask lots of questions when you meet your surgeon 🙂 x

Hey hunni, yes I read about that girl in the newspapers to and understand why people were outraged by her, she abused the system and why boob jobs are offered in the NHS she wanted it for basically the wrong reasons to show them off, pole dance and become a ‘model’. This is not the case with you and many others who get offered a BA on the NHS so don’t worry about what people think. Plus IF every person was honest they would admit that they would get it ‘free’ it it was offered to them. I would have done as I wanted a BA for all the same reasons as you. As most girls on this forum will agree; it’s not about having huge boobs but instead it’s about feeling like a woman, confident, feeling like an adult and not a woman trappe in a little girls body.

Although I’m not sure if you get too much of a say in size. My cousin had it done on the NHS as they offered her what was seemed as a old fit for her figure so I doubt you could go HUGE although I’m not too sure. Anyway good luck! Fingers crossed for you that it’s soon and your happy 🙂

I only want what will look good on me, I went up to a D when I was pregnant with my kids, but I’m totally flat now… I don’t want them to offer me something that would look too small or too big. It’s frustrating because you’re left in the dark a lot and because it’s cosmetic they don’t seem too bothered about you. I get really nervous around NHS doctors because in my experience they haven’t been nice. Originally my NHS case got rejected for funding reasons that year and I went to see a GP about it and she told me I didn’t need boobs it was all in the media. I complained but nothing happened about her. Another GP just appealed for me and I got a yes… The thing is, I wouldn’t bother if I was a B cup, but I’m in pain all the time because I have to layer 2 bras under a sports bra.

I would have went with MYA if I had more financial freedom, but the current situation makes it difficult.

good luck and all the best. dont even worry about what people say and think. remember it all you and what makes u feel good. you will get there! even if u have to wait a bit but it will be all worth it. xxx we will keep fingers crossed for u

Thanks Polina.
I’ve heard from the NHS now, they will do surgery on or before June 2nd (the wait list is 18 weeks). I’m waiting to hear from the surgeon’s secretary about what will happen next. She said it’ll probably be May that I get the op, unless urgent cases come up… So 4 months…. They need to book the pre-op with me and stuff, but I need to wait and see what they say. It’ll give me time to exercise and get in shape before I get my boobs done. I’m just hoping they give me what I want and it all goes well.

I’ve booked a few days off in April to take my kids to see family – we’re taking the train. I need the break, it leaves my husband at home without us all, so he’ll probably go all OCD and tidy the house! LOL

Hi hun

So sorry to hear about your husbands redundancy, that sort of financial set back is so hard to deal with esp when you’ve been saving for something like this.
I’m in the same boat as you when it comes to my chest; I don’t want to show them off I just want to feel feminine. All my bras are filled with at least 2 inches of padding an I wear bigger sizes just to try to look like I’ve got any!
Don’t worry what others might say; this is for you and if they dot understand – F them!
Xxx

Thanks Lilith Rose, it’s alright, things are starting to look better now but it was a huge blow because I had booked my surgeon appointment and pre-op, with surgery a week after and then it all went wrong… To be fair, I was rushing it a bit because I was so desperate to get surgery out the way. I want to get on with my life, you know?
But, we should be fine now. I just need to stay positive. My husband has promised me that he’ll buy me a new wardrobe with the money we’ve saved, and I cannot wait! Vintage dresses and pretty bras here I come!
It’s been such a struggle. But the surgeon at the NHS is really nice and he’s meant to be one of the best in the country. I think the thing worrying me most is being in a hospital over night, I’d rather be a day case. But it’s 4 months. I’ll need to keep people updated.
Thank you all for the kind and supportive words. I really was expecting people to take a negative stance on it. You’ve all been super supportive and friendly about it. I appreciate it 🙂 x

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