September I chickened out day of surgery… This week I did it!!!

Hi girls, I have been SO excited to post this… Last September I posted here about how I chickened out on the day of my surgery for my BA – literally within minutes of being taken down to theatre I was that TERRIFIED. As soon as I got home that day I was devastated, I was searching all over the internet to find someone who had been through something similar but couldn’t find a thing. Surely I wasn’t the only one that this had happened to? My surgeon THANKFULLY offered for me to take some time to sort my head out and agreed for me to re-book after new year if it was something I still wanted to do so that’s what I did. AND THIS WEDNESDAY I DID IT!!! Oh my goodness I can’t even begin to explain how happy I am. For any girls who are worried about general anaesthetic, or the pain PLEASE be assured since I stepped foot into that hospital Wednesday morning I have felt NO pain whatsoever. Only a slight ache. I’ve been told by my boyfriend not to get cocky as it’s still early days but I’m now two days post op and still waiting for some sort of pain… Still nothing. I had never been under any kind of anaesthetic before and even asked for the doctor to put the IV in my arm because the thought of it in my hand made me want to throw up. I looked away for about 60 seconds and without me knowing it was already in my hand. I know how difficult it is to believe other positive stories when you’re frightened to death because it is SURGERY at the end of the day but coming from the biggest baby in the world lol you DO NOT feel a thing and I can’t stress it enough 🙂 I have had no sickness either I wish wish wish I would have done it sooner but at the same time I’m so glad I gave myself those extra months to mentally get my head around it. The worst part so far was probably the argument I had with my boyfriend when I got home because he didn’t know how to put my hair into a ponytail for me hahahaha. If anyone has any questions please don’t hesitate to message me… I’ll add as well that I didn’t go with MYA I have been living in Sydney Australia for two years (since I was 21) with my boyfriend and it’s here that I had the surgery. Perhaps not having any family/friends around or being in a familiar place (the UK) played a big part in how doubtful I was from the beginning. Regardless of that if I can do it anyone can!!! Happy healing to all the other girls who have had their surgery this month and to all who have got theirs booked ❤️ x x x no doubt I’ll be asking lots of post op questions in here too x x x

Aww bless you. I think at certains times of my life i would have been the same. I used to get panic attacks when i was in my early 20s. I still suffer with anxiety but nothing like i did thank god. Mindfulless is a great practice for over thinking and becoming anxious.
Im so happy for you that you managed to go through with it hun! Congrats x x x

@alicerose so glad to hear that you went through with it i remember you posting in september, it was the twilight sedation that you was most worried about wasnt it. Its amazing stuff lol. Glad to hear you havent had any pain i was like that just abit of discomft but not really pain. Just take it easy an try not to over do it, happy healing xx

Didn’t read your previous post but glad to hear you managed to go through with it.

Hi Alice

Well done you!!! I have always wondered if people have ever chickened out on the day, I can see why! It is scary, like you say at the end of the day this is surgery, and for many of us this is our first surgery so this is like stepping out into the unknown. Also, I think the fact you chose to do this to yourself brings the doubts in even more. However, as I am sure you now agree, the end results must be so worth it!!

Congratulations for going ahead, can I ask what cc and did you have unders or overs? Have a smooth recovery!

Hannah x

Thank you so much crazycatlady ☺️ anxiety is a horrible thing x x x

Yes Laura that was me! Thank you lovely. It really is amazing!! I came around so quick and I couldn’t get over how normal I felt. I even got an uber home afterwards. Would do it all over again in a heartbeat ☺️ x x x

Thank you Natalie! I know it sounds a bit silly but I’m so proud of myself x x x

Hey Hannah – thank you so much. Yes SO worth it and I’m so greatful to have been given a second chance by the surgeon as well! I had 350cc under the muscle teardrop implants. I wanted 395cc so badly but my pockets weren’t big enough for them ☹️ My surgeon said if he ended up going with them anyway the implants would almost be sitting under my armpits. I completely trust his judegement but I’m praying they don’t end up too small… I’ll upload before and after pictures now lovely x x x

Pre-op…

One day post op…

Amazing results. 16 days to go until my op and I’m nervous about GA..reading this has made me feel so comfortable hun xxx

Hey Alice. Good for you. To be honest, I’ve had GA a couple times before and deal with it well BUT still had the exact same panic when I was on the table. It was only having the oxygen mask on that they couldn’t hear me say ‘oh I don’t know now’ haha! It was only a split second but I know it happens. Now 16days P.O. and loving it.
Well done you. Xx

@alicerose well done. glad you are happy and you have teardrops too. wooo hooo lol. I am awaiting to get my teardrops in! Happy recovery 🙂 xx

Awww Hun, such a lovely read. So happy that you finally went ahead with it! I’m 14 dpo atm and I have no regrets whatsoever only that I wish I’d done it sooner too. So glad it all worked out for you, happy healing, they look amazing!! X x x

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