A few of you may know of me by now, as I have posted a couple times, with some rather triggering and difficult questions/queries.
I’ve decided I’m ready. I want to do this. And this time no one is going to change my mind. It’s my body, my breasts, my future and my mental health. If I don’t change now, I won’t be happy.
You see, my mother has always been supportive, I adore her being such a wonderful mother by standing by my side.
My partner on the other hand has some different views on my surgery. I had saved for a long time and I got there, and because of my mental state because of thinking of what he had been saying to me. I broke down. And I must admit, I think that has satisfied him. Because I didn’t go through with it, he made me feel like if I went through with it, that I would be doing a bad thing and that we would break up. He said he wouldn’t touch me again while being intimate, that I would always have my breasts out on social media and wear revealing clothing etc. That I would change and be different. That I can’t afford it and that I’ll be in debt forever and it’s a stupid idea. God I felt so ashamed, I felt so small. He didn’t want to listen to me. I was alone. So I emailed my consultant,and just covered the real reason up with an excuse of ‘ I’m not feeling well enough’
I’m sick of feeling like this.
When I have saved enough again for my deposit, I will contact MYA again, and arrange another consultation, but they have previous records of medications and struggles with my mental health. But I feel I have improved massively, and my GP thinks so too.
If I contacted MYA again, what will happen next? What can I expect? Can I finally feel confident like I’ve always wanted?
I’ve been in pain for too long and I want to better myself. My way, to make me happy. No one else.
Any help/advice would be appreciated.
Thank you all ♡
