At last the blues have gone. I went shopping today and had a little try of a couple of bras and am very happy to say the 34D fit good and boobies looked fab!. well, i could have done with a 32 but i didnt want to damage my scars etc so i just tried the 34 for now 
I am happy to say i am in love with them again now and feel silly for even thinking they were too small.
Thank you to all the lovely ladies that sent me kind messages! sorry for moaning! lol
x x x