Confidence meltdown…

I went to MYA for the initial consultation today. It went great (apart from the fact I realised how much it will cost me which means I can’t have it as soon as I would have hoped). But I’ve always been unbelievably critical of myself from an extremely young age (I’m only 18 now). I personally believe it’s all stemmed from my insecurites with my nose and ears. I’ve always had a huge nose. It’s far too big for my face, which is quite petite. And my ears stuck out very badly, I had no crease. But I had them pinned back when I was 13.

This evening, I stupidly decided to reflect on all my insecurities again and I’ve had a complete confidence breakdown. I know I would be so much happier after rhinoplasty because to be honest, I do depend on that for for quite a bit of my happiness. It will be like taking a huge portion of pain away caused by the constant bullying and my scrutiny and miserable association with my nose. It has know become instinct for me to turn to an angle, which is usually the front, where people can’t see my side profile. I’ve been doing this for years and now it’s natural. It’s so wrong. I don’t feel comfortable doing anything and I want to be happy with my appearance. I am a lot more accepting of myself now I am older but I know I will still get this surgery.

Anyway, writing this has made me feel a lot calmer and I hope some people will understand. xxx

I understand totally where you are coming from honey,for years I felt the same people around me would say there’s nothing wrong with you,you look fine,but I did’nt look fine,I was so self concious when speaking to people,did’nt like my picture taken,I hated everything about my nose,save save save honey you will be surprised what you can do if you want something enough,It will make such a difference to your life,we will all be here to support you.xxx

Hi Hannah

I know exactly where you’re coming from. Would always turn to talk to people so they wouldn’t see my profile and found it hard to look in mirrors.

I’ve just had my cast taken off yesterday and feel so much happier.

My advice is go for it, wish I’d done it earlier.

Good luck hon x

I might not have gone through feelings that you have but I want to say hang in there hun….you are beautiful no matter what you think..we always more critical on our own body in the mirror..people are mean because they have their own insecurities…if its going to make you happy you should go for whatever will make you feel yourself…at the end of the day you deserve the best and nothing less…

hugs and support your way xxx

thank you tina, abigail and alli for your really kind words. I thought I would feel a lot better this morning after some sleep but I don’t, and your messages have made me smile. I’m just having a tough time, I struggle socially because of my insecurities with my nose and being in only my 1st year of uni, i find that hard. especially being away from home and being without the support from family.

anyway, I appreciate it a lot and I’m sure this sad phase will pass soon thank you so much xxx

Oh honey, you can always come on here and have a good old moan, the girls on here are so friendly and we really understand. I’ve sent you a friend request, and I’ll be happy to help you if I can x

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