Feeling completely selfish

I’m just going to have to get over this but has anyone else had feelings of complete and utter selfishness? This kicked in on Friday night when watching Comic Relief and I was thinking how many kids lives my 4k could save. I’ve just been crying thinking of it. It’s stupid I know, because even if I wasn’t spending the 4k on a boob job, I’d spend it on something else, I wouldn’t give away that much money to charity as I’m not a wealthy person and I work hard for my money. It’s probably just part of the 2nd thoughts before operation that I’m sure we all go through.

I worried as I have two kids and thought i should be putting it towards a deposit for a bigger house!

But then me and hubby saved for this specifically so that’s what i spent it on, and now we can start concentrating on saving for other things x

Yes I felt the same! 4k could have been spent on loads more stuff for me and my family but I’ve been putting it off and making excuses for years!

Then when u see charity advertisements you feel awful! I always put change in the boxes for charity I always sponsor friends and I always buy cancer badges and donate a pound to the box! You just got to do what u can x!

Dont feel bad you need to be going unto this 100% happy, u deserve it x

Thanks so much girls. I always give to charity. And we need loads done to the house and I felt the initial feeling of guilt when I first booked BA but got over it as we can do the work on the house anytime and I’m not getting any younger, so want the BA now. Think I’ll donate a bit more to comic relief. x

I was feeling like that too but felt like “aw my god I could have given that money to help Japan” but it was my student loan I used to fund mine….its all very weird, think you just gotta learn not to be too hard on yourself

Thznks Bex. I guess everyone in the world could think like this over whatever they’re spending their money on, whether it be surgery, a car, anything really. x

Comic relief is sad and that, BUT, we send millions of pouds every year on comic relief, but the world still never looks like it gets a better place.

I also feel selfish, as have 2 kids, But at the same time, i also think i deserve it. So do all of you. xx

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