No your not hun,you will look like a goddess,believe me you will still be bloated from the op everyone is different and it can last for a couple of weeks,you feel big because your brain is telling you that you will gain weight due to lack of exercise,and because you are used to exercising you are feeling guilty for sitting around,you will look amazing on holiday,believe me with boobs to die for everyones eyes will be on them.you need to let your body heal hun,the weight will drop off as soon as you resume normal activities.please dont get down about it,lots of girls feel heavier when they are post op,it soon goes,xxxx