My turn tomorrow and i have never been more miserable…..

Got a phone call Tuesday night that my father in law is not well. My husband and son are flying out on Friday the 23rd and won’t be back until Jan 7th. We are celebrating Christmas on the 21st with the turkey, presents etc. but then it is going to be me and my 12yr old daughter for christmas and new years. The rest of my family made other plans this year as we always host Christmas but because of my BA we decided on a mellow, low key Christmas. I know the big issue here is my father in laws health and that my husband will spend Christmas with his parents and siblings and what could be the last chance that my husband sees his father alive but i can’t help feel a bit sorry for myself. I haven’t had a holiday or an extended break in almost a year and a half as I only became permanent in my job this summer so I have saved up all my holiday time for now. I was expecting a relaxing few weeks with my husband and kids, we were planning a lovley Christmas new yrs eve dinner togehter and now……nothing. I am going to have to put on a brave face so that i don’t ruin my daughter holiday season. On wednesday that just past I had to organise and host the company christmas lunch and it was the hardest day of my life. I was so sad and was crying all morning and all afternoon smiling and pretending that everything is ok. Someone asked if i had been out drinking all nite as my eyes were red and puffy. I did share the situation with a few people but they have no idea that on top of all of this that there is a surgery involved. I can only say so much to my husband as he is devistated by the situation (obviously) and i don’t want him to have the added worry of me. We will talk everyday while he is away but it won’t be the same. This is the first Christmas and New years in 21 yrs that we won’t be together. Don’t get me wrong I do want my husband and son to have a lovely Christmas and New years and all of these emtions may all also include the nerves kicking in….Im sure i will be fine and be a stronger person at the end of it. Sorry to go on a bit but they say a problem shared is a problem halved.

Firstly sorry to hear about your father in law and secondly were all entitled to a rant to get things off our chest so dont feel bad! Hope everything goes well for your ba tomorrow and hope you and daughter manage to have a lovely Xmas although know will be tough without your husband and son. Xx

My heart goes out to you honey,you are torn between wanting what’s best for everyone,Ill be here,I know that’s not the same,I very rarely see anyone at Christmas,so I will be here. I also think that because you are due to have surgery this will be added pressure since you are already fragile emotionally.

All I can say is when you have had your procedure it will make such a difference to everything,you will still miss your family,but you will be emotionally stronger because of the confidence this will give you,all I can say is stay positive honey,try and make the best of the situation for your little girl,Christmas will come and go very quickly and before you know it your family will be together again,and you will be a stronger confident you,ready to face anything,massive hugs honey,wishing you the best of luck for tomorrow,let me know how you get on,Im around all day if you need me,xxx

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