Got a phone call Tuesday night that my father in law is not well. My husband and son are flying out on Friday the 23rd and won’t be back until Jan 7th. We are celebrating Christmas on the 21st with the turkey, presents etc. but then it is going to be me and my 12yr old daughter for christmas and new years. The rest of my family made other plans this year as we always host Christmas but because of my BA we decided on a mellow, low key Christmas. I know the big issue here is my father in laws health and that my husband will spend Christmas with his parents and siblings and what could be the last chance that my husband sees his father alive but i can’t help feel a bit sorry for myself. I haven’t had a holiday or an extended break in almost a year and a half as I only became permanent in my job this summer so I have saved up all my holiday time for now. I was expecting a relaxing few weeks with my husband and kids, we were planning a lovley Christmas new yrs eve dinner togehter and now……nothing. I am going to have to put on a brave face so that i don’t ruin my daughter holiday season. On wednesday that just past I had to organise and host the company christmas lunch and it was the hardest day of my life. I was so sad and was crying all morning and all afternoon smiling and pretending that everything is ok. Someone asked if i had been out drinking all nite as my eyes were red and puffy. I did share the situation with a few people but they have no idea that on top of all of this that there is a surgery involved. I can only say so much to my husband as he is devistated by the situation (obviously) and i don’t want him to have the added worry of me. We will talk everyday while he is away but it won’t be the same. This is the first Christmas and New years in 21 yrs that we won’t be together. Sorry to go on a bit but they say a problem shared is a problem halved.
