Need HELP/ADVICE feeling really low this month

Story so far…

Im 5ft 9 and a size 14, with currently a 34aa bust. I had myself correctly measured at a couple of different shops and that was my size. My breasts have stayed the same size since i hit puberty and nothing has changed, no matter how tall i get or how much weight i put on..

Although i was working full time until my contract finished the start of February, i have never had enough money to save for a BA and was turned down by numerous groups as i couldnt qualify for finance (I dont know anyone that earns 1200 a month…. and my mom, dad and boyfriend aren’t rich enough to fork out for them, all three are struggling with money so i’d feel selfish even bringing up the topic)

Last April (2011) I signed up to MyFreeImplants.com. In the first 6 months i did amazingly well, and got donations through doing crazy stuff, getting strange hair cuts/colours, sponsered for tattoo’s/piercings and uploading pics/videos of the final result Everything was going great and i have earned $3700 so far.

The only problem is lately my breasts and having them enlarged has taken over my life. I say taken over because its affecting my relationships, how i feel about the rest of my body, how much sleep im getting and its making me feel ill. Its getting bad.

Whereas before it never seemed a necessity, now its a huge deal for me and im becoming really impatient with myself. Im hardly logging onto Myfreeimplants as i dont have to confidence to do so, it had started to feel like a popularity contest and seeing many girls reach their goals in a few weeks or months really knocked my confidence as its nearly taken me a year and i’ve gotten to a standstill…

The reason for this post is because im seriously considering approaching my GP about having this breast enlargement done on the NHS. Im aware of how selfish that sounds, i’ve watched both my brother and sister need life saving operations which is why im so grateful for the NHS and feel so stupid for feeling like this is the only way i can do this.

I have literally no breast tissue, in fact i will be posting a full length photo up just so you can see how deformed my body looks because of it. If i was smaller and more petite i wouldnt care, but with my tall body and broad shoulders i feel so masculine and its stopping me from doing the things that a young woman should want to do. Even getting dressed to go for a family meal becomes a huge drama when i begin to get ready to go.

IF any ladies have any help/advice please let me know? Should i approach my GP? Or does anybody know of any UK clinics that offer cheaper yet still great surgery with aftercare? Please share your thoughts, i just dont know what to do anymore

Dee x

Hi huni ur GP cant send you off for an enlargement without other factors bein considerd such as the impact this is having on ur mental state how it would benefit etc this is a decision GP’s arnt allowed to make alone they need another proffessional opinion if your GP thinks yes this really is affecting u theyd refer u to a councillor who.wud be the second opinion this tho can take well over six months n is not guarenteed if ur feelin that low tho maybe some councilling would help u huni ive had it and boosts u a little but ive wrked.16hrs.a day to.save for.my op n I feel great but tired. its very rare to get boobs done on the nhs now tho.

Your doin fab on MFI huni id keep it up your over half way wud be a shame to of sone those tatoos n bits for nothin, I know its hard huni but try not to let this take over ur life. Talk to ur fella or ur GP your family. I used to sit sobbin to my sister till she gave me the kick up the arse I.needed. Can u not pay a deposit with ur MFI fund and get the rest on finance?? Chin up huni.xx

Hi, I think you are doing excellent, don’t compare yourself with the other girls everyone is different.

I have found that the birkdale clinic which is much cheaper than anywhere else although I have not gone with them (decided on mya). They often do special offers for BA’s. I know they use one of the same surgeons as mya but I do not know what the aftercare is like and it does make me wonder where they are cutting corners to be able to do special offerers at that price.

If I were you i’d keep up with mfi and go with a reputable company like mya best not to take chances on surgery. Good luck xx

Thanks for the replies girls! Im aware that going through GP could take up to two years (My moms friend works within the NHS and said she thinks i would be suitable but they usually wait and have to do all sorts of physcological and physical exams before they give you the go ahead to make sure its the right decision)

Though i think if it was even acknowledged and i had the councilling that alone would help and be a temporary band aid.

Im really considering trying to put a 500 deposit down with MYA to book my surgery, as its my birthday coming up and my mom and dads family are all putting money together for me and with my last months wages from work it could be done. It’d still mean i had 1300 to get on MFI but that seems much more positive and achievable than what im at now

I think i just needed to let it out at stupid o’clock last night, couldnt sleep but it sure helped Thanks girls xx

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